Gotye - Eyes Wide Open - official film clip

I want to redevelop relationships in the natural world.  I think that my distance from nature and a natural way of living is what causes me to be depressed, stressed and generally sick in my mind, body and spirit.    I think that a wealth of experience lies waiting in intuition.  I want to learn to be in tune with my subconscious.  I have been slowly taking hints that the world around me is alive in more ways than I can imagine.  This world is speaking and I need only turn my ear to listen.

Murmuration

You are my body and I cannot live without you.  When you hurt, I hurt.  When you have a need so do I. I am sorry for not listening when you cried out.  I am now sick because you are sick.  I have not treated you as I should. I will do my best to listen now, and to do what needs to be done to return us both to vital health.

Beginning

I'm starting a new blog.  Here.  I start today from a place of ill health.  I am depressed.  I have tension manifested as knots and tightness throughout my body.  I have two hands impeded by arthritic symptoms.  I have a mind shaped by post-industrial media, unable to focus and make necessary connections.

This morning the sky was opened to a light blue after days of gray.  I've been watching the sky for weeks listening for something.  I've noticed the feelings i get from a particular sky.  Today's sky was welcome after several days of gray.

I know we're all interconnected.  I know that is wonderful and I know I have access to connection whenever I might choose to seek it.  But I've always been afraid.  I don't act on my "knowledge".  It remains conceptual.

I want this space to aid me in my quest for that interconnection. I want it to help me be accountable.  I want to live my life far from this computer.  But I want to plug into the capacity for connection however limiting this medium may be.